My mum passed away on the 1st of this month. While I type those words I can hardly believe them. Mum is gone. I feel as though I will wake up any minute now and realise these past few weeks have all been a horrible dream. Sadly that will not happen. Losing your mum is such a profound and fundamental loss. The very person who brought me into this world has now left it. My absolute constant in my life since the day I was born won’t be here to share in the highs and lows of the rest of my own life.
My mum was diagnosed with cancer just before Christmas, in November. It was a big blow given we had almost lost her to a brain hemorrhage a few years ago. She just couldn’t cut a break. In true Mum style she vowed to fight and faced her chemotherapy with such bravery. It was not kind to her and left her wiped out.
She was rushed to hospital in mid April and a rollercoaster of a few weeks resulted in us being finally told she was at the end of her life. Those final days were heartbreaking. We spent as much time with her as possible. Every evening we said goodbye not knowing was it the last goodbye. In the end she slipped away peacefully during a brief moment we were asked to leave the hospital room while they attended to her.
She clearly thought she was a celebrity making her exit in 2016 aged 69. It is certainly a year that is taking the greats. Mum being the greatest of them all.
My mum was an amazing woman. Every positive adjective that you can think of to describe a person would work for her. She was kind, caring, thoughtful, brave, creative and inspirational. She was always thinking of others over and above herself. She was truly my role model.
There is so much I will miss; too much to mention here, but above all I will miss knowing that I have the most amazing woman at the end of the phone or a short drive away to bounce ideas off, share a problem or just have a chat about life in general. Her death leaves a giant hole in my heart but thankfully she filled my heart up with a lot of love during her time with us.
I love you Mum. Rest in peace.